Am I a fool or a master?

I am not an artist, but am trying to become one.

Years ago I had an infinite span of time to devote myself to developing my skills.

I improved, but at a crawling pace.

Now I'm going to have to learn to run faster than I'd ever ran before. I must teach myself how to fly.

I have only three months to prove to myself that this really is the path for me. I have chosen an awefully dangerous path, one that could ruin my life forever should I fail. Whether I pass or fail, I will soon know whether I really have the strength within me to achieve something with my life.

I failed many times before.

I fear my own decisions.

I fear for my own future.

I see a very long road ahead of me, but the only way I'm ever going to make it is with a little faith....